Letting it all out....

Hmmm where do I start? I am going to let you know how I am feeling because I think it is important for people to really know. I am not looking for sympathy or anything, I get asked every single day "how are you?" So I am going to tell you... (because I will always tell you I am good even if that isn't the case)

I am doing ok, it has taken me a while to process my new diagnosis. I try to be a super strong and positive person but I am like everyone else. I have my why me moments, my scared moments, my pissed off moments and my how am I going to get through this moments. But deep down I am still Liane and that doesn't change.

I think the biggest difference between this diagnosis and back in January of 2012 when I was diagnosed is that you now know what to expect this time and I think that is harder. When I went through this the first time I knew I would fight it and be a survivor it was just a matter of getting through the treatments. No matter how hard it was or how crappy I felt you just did it.

This time its a whole different ball game. When you are told that it has metastized and that it is in your bone, and then you ask what that means exactly and what I hear is "well we are just going to keep treating it." It just doesn't give you the same feeling you fell a bit defeated. I think the hardest part is that I know what to expect, and I told myself I would never go through this again. Here I am 1.5 years later going through radiation and chemo. I will not lie I am not looking forward to chemo at all, it sucks!!! With that said, I am going to do everything I can to be here for as long as I can.

I am going to do everything it takes to continue to live a healthy and enjoyable life.I am going to change my diet because that is one of the biggest things you can do. I am going to try alternative approaches and I am going to live my life for today. I am going to do this with the support from all of you. Thank you everyone for your kind words, thoughts, prayers, jokes and listening to me.

Enjoy the hot sunshine the rest of the week :)

Love ya!

Appointment update etc...

I went to Chilliwack Hospital on Tuesday to have my portocath reinstalled. I got there at 6:50 my surgery was scheduled for 8:50am. Well that didn't go according to plan (of course) my surgeon came over at 9:00 and told me we were being bumped as there was an emergency surgery. He said it would be a couple hours. Ohh no I was already starving a couple more hours...ok I can do this no big deal. Over 5 hours later they finally came and got me for the surgery thank goodness. I was very lucky they cancelled the surgeries after me for that day. My port is in and I am healing from it very nicely it is a bit sore but no big deal.

So appointments to come...I got a call yesterday I am going to go for a PET scan on August 5th at 1:00pm in Vancouver on West 10th. Then August 7th I meet with my Radiation Oncologist to find out the plan for treatments.

Things are moving along I went to the hairdresser yesterday and got a fun short cut.

Talk to you soon.

So it begins...

We had a fantastic week camping up at Glimpse Lake lots of great fishing and riding. We smoked 11 Rainbow trout yesterday yumm.

On another note I go for surgery tomorrow morning to have my power port installed. I have to be at Chilliwack hospital for 6:50am, my surgery is scheduled for 8:50am. The surgery should be a piece of cake. I am just not looking forward to everything that follows. The worst thing for me with all my treatments last time was when they had to hook up my port. I don't look forward to having them have to do it again. I am hoping it will be different this time. Guess I will find out soon enough.

August 7th I meet my radiation oncologist to find out what kind of treatments I will have for radiation.

Have a great week!

Liane

The appointments begin...

So today was the first time I had alone to really let this sink in ..... WTF is all I have to say. It was an emotional start to my day at 6:30am when Marcel left for work I got up like usual and headed out to the kitchen but this time it was different I had to stop and take my bone strengthener medication first before doing anything else. As I am not allowed to take it with food. Then I decided I should probably sit down and let everyone know what's going on. So I grabbed my laptop and signed on FB, hmmm what do you say and how do you tell people? Well I go with the no frills attached approach, within minutes positive comments and thoughts started to arrive. "Ok it's out there" I think to myself now time for me to do a little research.

I head over to my trusty website google and type in Breast Cancer to metastisize bone....I go to WEBMD and have a read. (Please do not believe everything you read on the internet is in the back of my head.) Yep idiot you shouldn't have started to read about it here come the tears. I pull myself back together and carry on with my day off to Costco and lets get my trailer packed I am going camping for a week to Glimpse Lake with Marcel and the Bears (my parents.) I get through most of the day pretty good with only a few teary eyed moments.

At 2:00pm I go to see my surgeon Dr. Wiggins for a consultation to get a portocath reinstalled. My appt for the day surgery is booked for July 22. Not sure what time yet I have to call the day before. I will have a follow up visit with him on July 31 to make sure all is good. Now I am just waiting for all the other appts to be booked.

Next is Radiation so I need to have a consultation with Dr. Lester to discuss the plan that appt should be soon. Then I need to have a PET scan in Vancouver some time and on to Chemo in Sept I am guessing. I shall keep you all posted.

Liane XXX

July 2014 not what I had in mind...

So I went to see my Oncologist yesterday and she was able to tell me the results from the CT scan and Bone scan. Unfortunatley, it was not the results I was hoping for. She told me that the scans showed that the cancer has metastisized to my bones. I really wasn't sure what to feel. Then she told me we would start radiation and chemo. Ughhh Chemo again, that means I have to go get my port installed again. That really sucks. I thought I was done with that stupid painful thing.

My lower back has been sore for months and of course we all just chalked it up to getting old lol. Well for me not so much apparently I have a tumour growing on my L3 vertabrae. So some radiation to shrink it so it isn't painful. Then some chemo to try and kill it and have it not be active.

So what's next... well first a little vacation with my parents and my husband up at Glimpse Lake. Then when I get back appts with the Radiation Oncologist, Dr. Wiggins to have my port put back in, a PET scan in Vancouver...then Chemo.

Have a great day it's gonna be a hot one.

Liane xxx